I have just had an incredibly blessed weekend and I haven’t felt this rejuvinated in a long time. God has really been working incredibly in my life, and I just wish I felt this way everyday… this weekend I spent some time with my church doing Servolution, which is a time when we go out into the Baton Rouge area and do different service projects. My group went into the inner city and cleaned up in some neighborhoods. It was definitely more than I expected because I knew people would be grateful, but they even expressed it in their faces and in speaking with us. I know that it really has a deeper impact than I could even see up front, and I truly believe we sowed some good seeds into their heart.
I also think I was moved to a new place through service. Even though I KNOW that this life is about God and is far bigger than myself, I believe the Lord is humbling me and preparing my heart. I want him to humble me, because quite frankly, I am selfish and have started to become like a typical 26 year old American. I refuse to settle for the typical now, because this life cannot be sustained in finding satisfaction in the world. What I mean is, I have looked to so many other things in this life to make me happy, AND THEY CAN’T. Only knowing Jesus as my Lord and Savior has moved my heart to complete satisfaction, and he is STILL completing it.
A part of me has grown restless in him trying to move me out of my worldliness because my feelings decieve me all the time. Many days I have found myself doubting God because i couldn’t feel his presence or salvation in me. I can see now that a lot of that has been because I chose to dwell in my bad feelings. Actually, this is something I realized a long time ago, but maybe now God is bringing a change to the forefront. What I now know is the way I feel cannot measure his love for me, and I must choose daily to follow him and trust that he is working. I really want to express more on this issue, but my mind is failing me now, so perhaps someday I will write more. For those who read I just really wanted to share how good and faithful God has been in working with my life. Like I said there is so much more to say, but since I can’t find the words, I just want to glorify him because I know he has given me so much love undeservingly. It’s so amazing how he still loves each of us and cares for each of us no matter where we have been or what we have done.
I also want to link the blog of one of my favorite singers right now. This girl is constantly inspiring me and uplifting me through her words. Check it out: http://bethanydillon.com/journal/journal1.aspx
